In the middle of the night,
I am sitting alone in the room,
looking straight to my laptop screen,
reflecting what had took place through year 2010
In fact, I did not usher into year 2010 with a high spirit
I lost hope, I have no direction
I have no idea what will be waiting for me
I even do not want to think about it.
Half the year will end soon
Just in this short six months,
I have gone through much
One of the thing that I hate to go through is saying goodbye
It is not easy to say goodbye
In just this few months time,
some came in to live together in this ministry house
another went out to their destiny
In ministry,
It is just indescribable with words
It is just hard to express what I truly feel about all that took place
Am I glad?
Am I sad?
Am I rejoicing?
Am I disappointed?
I have just no idea
Towards a moment,
I do not know what I am truly feeling
Am I been hiding my feelings all this while?
Or is it too much until I do not know how to respond?
Recently I browse back those pictures that were taken ages ago
It reflects back those sweet and sour memories
How each of us have been changing all this while
Some continue on with the race
Some left
Some came back
Some bounce back
But some just could not catch up
Recently as I go back hometown
I will surely spend time with my nephew and niece
and of course my other family members as well
It feels so hard each time I was to leave the house
As if I needed to wake up from a sweet dream
As if it is time for me to face the reality
The Bible mentioned that this is not an easy path
It is narrow
Not many will choose to walk in this path
Lord, strengthen me
The more I knew You,
the weaker I feel
and only then Your strength will be revealed much more in me
Show me Your way
Show me Your will
Let me walk in the will of You
Let me bring joy to You
I love the ending of a song named "爱是不保留"
The ending is
“我以决定今生再没所求，惟望得主称赞已足够“
Nothing is much more meaningful than a single praise from God~
