A Gl@sS oF MiLk~

One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry.

He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door.

Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it so slowly, and then asked, “How much do I owe you?”

“You don’t owe me anything,” she replied. “Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness.”

He said, “Then I thank you from the bottom of my heart.”

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Many years later that same young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease.

Dr. Howard Kelly was called in for the consultation. When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes.

Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to her room.

Dressed in his doctor’s gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once.

He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to her case.

After a long struggle, the battle was won.

Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, and then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill. She read these words, “Paid in full with one glass of milk.”

(Signed) Dr. Howard Kelly

Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: “Thank You God, that Your love has spread broad through human hearts and hands.”

There’s a saying which goes something like this: Bread cast on the waters comes back to you. The good deed you do today may benefit you or someone you love at the least expected time. If you never see the deed again at least you will have made the world a better place – and, after all, isn’t that what life is all about?

Galatians 6:9-10, "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers."

MiSs~

Out of sudden, I miss my family (mommy, daddy, bros, sis-in-law, nephew), miss my friends (at Ipoh, KL, etc. and also those that are scattered around the world), church mates (Ipoh and also those from Joshua Camp). There are just way too many people that I miss. How I miss the time that we used to spend together. How we laugh and cry together. How we support and encourage each other. How we dream dreams together. How we study together. During my hard times, you all are there to be at my side, to help me go through and give me comfort. When I am happy, how joyful it is to share with you all. Though, now we are separated by distance. We walk in different routes, moving on our own journey. We may be able to meet again or that was the last time. Thanks all for making my life more colourful and I really appreciate it and cherish it. Muacks!

LaSt MiNuTe Ch@nGeS~

I woke up at 6.15 in the morning, as today I have to go to interview a manager at 7.30am (part of my project for Islamic Institution subject). I prepared myself by 7.25am. I went to wait for my other group members at the café. I called one of them but she didn’t answer my call. I tried to call her few times but to no avail. Not long after that, she called me back and told me, “Don’t you know that the interview has been cancelled?” I was like, “What?! Cancelled already but no one inform me.” She added, “I thought someone will message you and tell you about that.” My reaction is that, “You THOUGHT but doesn’t mean that it DOES happen. Feel like screaming to her.” But I just keep it to myself, for I know that if I ever burst out like that, surely she will tell the whole world about it and everyone will see me as how she will be describing me. *Sigh.

This kind of situation does not happen once but many times. For most of the time, or should I say almost every time, I just keep it to myself or expressing it at here. I do not want to hurt her but I am hurting myself. This is part of life. At times, I asked myself, “Can’t you just talk to her and let her know?” But I can’t blame her totally even though she thought something happened but it actually does not. Who will be able to tell me what can I do? Should I talk to her or just keep it to myself? I am straight-forward person. I do not know how to ‘twist’ it in a more acceptable way. And at the same time, she is a sensitive person. Easily hurt by simple and minor things.

But then again, God reminded me to be a good testimony and to accept them for who they are. If I want to rebuke them, it has to be done with love and patience. It is something that I am learning all these while but still not so good in it. I just pray that I will be able to control my anger and this will not happen again. I have a test this afternoon but not in the mood to study. I should not focus on this incident to further deteriorate my mood. I got to get back to my study now. =(

StReSs~

I am exhausted. Going through a busy life recently and I really feel exhausted, both mentally and also physically. I am stressed and lack of rest due to tons of assignments and reports. Thanks to all the lecturers that gave us so many works to do. Besides, the cooperative learning is something new to me and it sometimes adds to my burden. It needed lots of discussion with group members and it is wasting my time. Feel like want to shout out all the stress and tension. Starting from next week, I will be even busier with my first tests for the semester. Thinking of it already makes me shiver. I needed a break. I am looking forward to the semester break at the end of this month. I needed to get away from this tense situation else I will be overstressed. Everyday, besides attending lecture classes, I have to finish up all the assignments and reports which seem like no ending. After finishing one, another will pop up. I am not the kind that can be productive for many hours straight. But that is what I am doing recently. Not much rest time for my stressed brain.

Oh God, give me more strength to overcome all these. By depending on my own strength, I am sure that I will fall down very soon. But by Your strength, I can still endure till today and for the days ahead. Give me wisdom as well in my studies that I will be able to understand easily and also remembering all that I studied. I pray also that God will give wisdom to my lecturers so that they will know how to teach us effectively and we will be able to get the knowledge from them. In Jesus’ name, amen.

ArGuMeNtS~

This story touches my heart while I read it. Twice, I had an argument with someone that can consider my closest friend in this world since my young age. However, due to some problems between us, we are now separated. We no longer talk to each other. I do not know when will it be too late to reconcile with this person, just like the story below...

Last night you and your best friend had a fight. You decide not to talk to her the next day. She smiles at you. You grind your teeth at her. She tells her friends nice things about you. You spread bad rumors about her. She tries to come and talk to you. But you push her aside. She thinks you are a great friend. You think she is a terrible friend. Shewrites nice notes to you, telling you about the best times you shared together. You write about all the bad times you can remember experiencing together. Deep down you know she's sorry. But all you have is hate. The next day you find a note. It reads:

Dear -------------, I tried to tell you yesterday, but you didn't let me speak, I tried to tell you good things, but you were afraid to hear them. I tried to smile at you, to take away the hate. But now it's time to tell you, even though it's a bit late. That I am dying. I have a bad condition and it is getting worse. I'm sorry to have to tell you that I won't be able to see you today. I wrote this to you today in the hospital. My time is up. I'm sorry I should have told you sooner. I'm really sorry about our argument; you are such a great friend. I promise I shall watch over you,

Lots of love
-------------

You run to the hospital to tell her you are sorry, but only her mum is left. Her hand clasped over her face. And she was crying. Down on her knees she prays, for her daughter to come back. You are too late. You wish you told her sorry sooner and got to say goodbye. All friends have their ups and downs, and sometimes you need to say sorry... Don't wait for the other person to do it first. Because you never know what could happen.

Th3 PoWeR oF Pr@y3r

For this semester, most subjects that I took are quite tough and more theoretical. I am not good in memorizing theories and thus I find it quite hard to study those subjects. Besides, while I am in class, I usually not able to pay full attention and I end up learning nothing after lecture classes. It is a waste of time for me. Another problem that I encountered is that some of the lecturers are not that good in giving lecture and most of the students do not understand what those lecturers are trying to teach us.

Yesterday, my first lecture class is on the subject "Power Systems". Not my favourite subject and not my major. While I attending the class, out of sudden I have the intention to pray first. I prayed that God will give me wisdom so that I will be able to understand whatever the lecturer going to teach and I also prayed so that I will be able to pay full concentration in the class. After doing this simple prayer, I really managed to understand the lecture class and able to pay full attention. Praise the Lord!

After this lecture class, I have to attend analog class. Again, not something I like and all these while, I do not understand the lecturer at all. I forgotten to pray this time and I end up do not understand again.

See, there are differences when I pray and when I didn't pray. As God said, "ask and it will be give to you". It is just that simple. Pray to Him sincerely and God will give you what you have asked, if that is not for your own pleasure and with right attitude and purposes. For many years, God has blessed me so much in my studies. Many things seem impossible but God made it possible to happen and the result is much more better than we have expected or prayed for. His blessings will overflow. Praise the Lord! That's the power of prayer. So, what are you waiting for? You can start praying right now... A simple prayer will be able to make a big difference... =)

FrUsTr@t3d

Am now so frustrated with my lab report which was to be hand up by tomorrow. The lab was to be done with a partner and this should be a good thing (in some ways). My partner did the lab and she found the answer. I tried to do it, following her ways but to no avail. Thus, I asked her about it but I just got cold responses from her. She didn't even save her works. *sigh. When I really can't figure out how to do it, I asked whether she can do it again or not. She gave me a quick response of "Ha...". Indirectly she gave me the answer that she is definitely not willing to do it again (though it may take her few minutes time only). This is it.

Okay, so what are my feeling at that time? I just said, "never mind then" and that's it. I am disappointed with the way she tried to help (if that considered as helping me). Actually the point is when she needed my help in studies, I as if have to and is my responsibility to help her. If I didn't try to help her, she will be telling around that I didn't do that for her and stuff like that. Somehow, this is what I get in return. *sigh again.

That's the story. Now back as a Christian. When this incident occurs, God told me to forgive her. I helped her previously not because I wanted anything back from her. I believe for all the good things that I did, God will reward me in time to come. In Galatians 6:9-10, God said "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers." May I continue to learn this lesson and continue to do good to all. God is so good! Amen!

p/s: A friend of mine came to my rescue and I did it. Now proceed to the report. Gambateh!

FiRsT EnTrY

This is my first entry in this new blog of mine. It happens to be my birthday today. It will be a memorable day for me, as I fall sick on this day. I went to see doctor this morning and she asked me to take a blood test. When I go in again, the doctor said, "I have a bad news for you." At that moment, I got no special reaction, still calm. Then the doctor said that I am suspected of having dengue fever. I have to go back for a blood test again tomorrow. I do not like needle @ injection but this is what I have to take. Sigh.

I back to my room after seeing the doctor. After taking a light breakfast, I ate those medicine. And thanks to those medicine, I slept from 10 something in the morning till 7 something in the evening. I just woke up for about one hour in that period of time. Luckily my roommates woke me up, else I do not know I will sleep till what time. Hopefully I will recover soon. If tomorrow I didn't pass the blood test, I will be admitted into hospital. Please pray for me.

I would like to take this opportunity to thanks everyone for all the best wishes. I appreciate it and thanks again.