Again...

Lord,

again I come into Your presence,

again I commit myself to You,

again I surrender all to You,

again I ask from You,

again I seek after You,

again I wait on You.

Lord,

I am weak,

I am not able,

I am not good in speech,

I do not have much wisdom,

I do not know what to do,

I do not know is that the right way.

Lord,

You are my strength,

in You nothing is impossible,

You able to put words in my mouth,

You granted me wisdom,

You taught me what to do,

You guided me to the right path.

Lord,

I want to remember Your attributes,

I want to remember Your promises,

I want to remember Your love,

I want to remember Your joy,

I want to remember Your hope.

Lord,

fill me right now,

set me free,

cover over me,

give me strength,

renew me,

refresh me.

I needed much of You.

I just can't live without having You.

I truly love You, my wonderful Savior.

Searching for food

It was another Saturday,

where we were busy with the invitations.

And as usual,

we went to night market (pasar malam)

to buy food for our dinner.

But it was an unusual night market,

where most of the food stalls are not in business.

No laksa.

No fried mee.

No nasi lemak, nasi dagang and nasi kerabu.

Those left are more towards snack type.

I wanted something that will look like a full meal.

And at the end Siew Ling spotted one stall,

that was selling "chee cheong fun".

I am so happy and glad.

It feels like "Finally, I have found one."

Thank God for He knows me well enough.

Knowing what I wanted and needed.

You are such a wonderful Father. =)

Conversation with God

I was making myself a cup of coffee,

but my heart is not at peace.

There is just something that bothering me,

but I am wordless,

do not know what to say.

I started to speak in tongue,

and eventually,

something come to my mind,

and I just talked to God,

"Lord, they are your sheep,

they are not mine."

Very quickly, God responded to me,

"I will take care of them."

He comforted me,

when I needed Him most.

In His special way,

He again assured me that He is right there.

Again, I surrender to God,

to let Him lead,

to let Him guide,

to let Him control.

Lord, I fully surrender all to you again.

I wanted to protect them,

but that is not the way God wants it to be.

Lord, may Your will be done,

may Your kingdom come.

My dearly sis

Out of sudden, I just feel like something is missing.

I have just back from spending precious time with my dearly sis.

It has been a wonderful moment;

where we shared our life, food, thoughts, and experiences.

Thinking back,

it is just like a miracle

to be able to find someone like her in my life.

It is really not easy, to find someone that you can really trusted on.

And on top of that, there is just no jealousy between us.

What a pure relationship we have.

When either one is in trouble,

or just facing some problems,

the other one will surely try to help out.

At least will stand by the side,

to be a supporter,

a listener,

and a comforter.

This time round, we are not able to spend much time together,

we are not able to catch up much with one another,

but still, time and distance will not be able to separate us.

Once, we may be walking together in the same path.

Now, we are getting far,

for we are walking in different paths of life.

But I just believe,

nothing will be able to separate us,

for we really treasure the friendship we have.

Sis,

I hope you will be joyful always.

I wish and pray for your success,

in study and in life

and as the children of God.

You are truly a wonderful sister to me...

Thank you for all that you have done.

Miss you...

Specially dedicated to Siew Cheng

A forwarded SMS

I have received a message (through phone) from my friend yesterday.

It was indeed a forwarded message.

As I was going through the message, I tried to guess the answer.

The message sounds like this:

____________________________________________________________

Do you know what happened last night?

In my room?

On my bed?

When the time was 3am?

When all others were sleeping?

I was also sleeping!

(-_-)"z"Z

____________________________________________________________

And my respond was like, "Okay.... I was sleeping as well."

*sweat*

So what was in your mind when you are reading through this?

Uniqueness

Uniqueness

What does it means to you?

Do you think that you are unique in your own ways?

Or you are just another one?

Are you being influenced by the people?

Or you are the influencer?

Being different from the others,

while still confident with ourselves;

and

that is what uniqueness is all about.

For quite some time,

I felt weird, for being different.

I have different kind of ideas - which people think they are crazy,

different kind of jokes - where people will not laugh.,

different kind of taste - where people will say that you so different from others,

and there are many other differences in different aspects.

Then one day,

God said to me, " You are unique in your own ways."

It gave me the confident of being different,

not looking of how people will see me,

but always remember that God has created me.

Do not try to be like someone else,

or thinking, how I have wished if I am ....

but know that God has created you for who you are.

Always give thanks

and

accept the facts.

There is no way to turn back,

to change the history.

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances,
for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Waiting...

This is just a random post.


I am in the midst of wondering. Wonder what should I do and how should I help out.


I loved and still loving them. But it seems that it is hard to really show them. The way I am showing my love may not be how they wanted it. I really wish to see that they will grow, they will understand, all that we are doing for them, all that we requested them to do.


Once, I asked, "Will you be joining the activity?" in a soft voice and the answer was "WHY??!!". I asked again and the same respond that I received. What's wrong with my question that I deserved that kind of answer and respond?


I am tired. Everything seems to be broken here and there. Relationship broken. Communication breakdown. Etc.... How should I put back everything to its place? And when they have problems, I am the one have to solve it. Never think of solving it themselves. Never think that it is not easy for me as well.


Sigh.. Is it better for me to leave the place, so that they can grow themselves and I need not have to be so mentally tortured. But I do not want to leave because I am facing challenges. I want to fulfill my responsibilities.


I am falling, but I still hold on to You. Waiting for You to bring me high, like eagles soaring high on its wings. I want to rest in You, dwelling in Your wonderful presence. Lying down on the green pastures. Enjoying Your peace. Filled by Your love and hope.


I am still waiting...